Here is the belated continuance...

Now, we finally get to the point to consider each of the ways to damage, if not destroy the testes in place. I did considerable research into each, a surprising amount in the medical (and in one case veterinary) research literature, plus sites like the old manmods.

I quickly eliminated two methods. They'd inevitably require a trip to the ER to surgically remove my destroyed nuts. That would have been fine, but in such cases where it's thought the damage is self-inflicted it leads to a nearly compulsory psych eval. So, the two methods I passed on are bursting the testicle by clamping, hammering, etc. The other is using the animal castration tool, a Burdizzo, to crush the connecting tissues between the nut and the groin. I've found in my case those tissues have no pain sensation if they were to be clamped high enough, but I could not come up with any plausible explanation for the medicos.

That leaves injections of either high proof alcohol/ethanol (Everclear brand is commonly used) or a solution of calcium chloride (cacl) in alcohol. Cacl is a common salt used in making cheeses and deicing roads. Opting for just alcohol requires many injections into each testicle over quite some time, whereas the cacl solution takes just one into each orb if done correctly. There is extensive research on using the later mixture, especially with dogs. I thought I'd do the cacl option, buying the salt and syringes (10-pack is the smallest I found) from Amazon. The Everclear was bought locally.

Before doing the deed I had to learn from the literature what percent cacl solution was probalby best and how to make a "percent solution." Finally, I decided I try a dry-run, so to speak, because it is essential that the injections be done precisely. Leaking out of the actual testes is reported to be very painful, though if done correctly only a couple days swelling was reported in dogs with no untoward evidence of discomfort. Yet, a couple guys who had done this stressed NOT getting any solution in the scrotum proper. Thus, I tried a dry needle "injection" into my by then already shrunken, smaller left nut, attempting to duplicate the specific technique to maximize distribution within.

This procedure proved more difficult than I expected because of my lack of size and the quite small amount of the solution to be injected throughout while slowly withdrawing the needle. After a while I decided this was too risky. I really didn't want to try to explain this to someone if it went wrong. Also, I'd not have repeated opportunities to do the alcohol by itself.

That left repeatedly "stirring" of the insides of each ball with needles. I wasn't sure I'd be able to do that any more precisely or frequently than injections. I should note that by then my nuts had already shrunk for a good reason I learned from a superb research report in the summer of 2022, a little over a year ago (more on that shortly). At only 3 to 4 ml (cc) each in volumn, the commonly used measuring bead-like device labeled mine as "prepubescent boy" size! But, I want to do more harm!

To clarify, by early spring in 2021 my wife and I agreed to no more sexual interactions. We'd sorta slipped into doing none after a few months of futile attempts by her to get me off from mid-summer to mid-fall of 2020. During that time in 2020, unspoken with my constant failure we had drifted into no interactions in bed at all until early 2021... and another discussion as noted to start this paragraph.

However, at that time we agreed to recommence contact, i.e., nonsexual intimacy in bed. But, over 6-weeks that too faded away completely. For me, doing so felt contrived and artificial. And, she'd often fall asleep with nothing to do together but some hugging, platonic caressing, and kissing. Yes, at about that time I quit coming via masturbation as well. This will be an important part of my story.

Again, I should note that with this interaction ending I again felt emotionally relieved as I had without intimacy at all the end of the previous year, but now it would prove to be with all sexually related conflict and frustrations eliminated, once and for all (though I could only suspicion that at the time). Yet, I still felt the need back then and on throughout that year, 2021.

Shortly after the start of the new year, 2022, I realized I was not feeling the need, nor desires I had all my life. I noticed I wasn't looking at porn, nor fantasizing like I always had. And, I'd not been doing any writing of risque fiction (I'd done 3 novels and many shorter scenarios over the years). I realized something important had been changing within me and it was movement toward exactly as I'd wanted when my wife dropped her original confession on me of no longer needing sex 1-1/2 years before!

I admit to end up basking in the lack of need, contrary to everything I'd ever have imagined possible. My penis was no longer my fave toy as it had always been for as long as I could remember. I opted to start "working" on it for a while, pressing, clamping, etc. But, I rather quickly lost interest. I soon found that all I was doing with my penis was spending maybe 10 to 15-seconds in the shower retracting my copious foreskin and washing it. That was (and still is) it.

Later in the year, 2022, someone on manmods happened to mention a French group and their Website dedicated to overheating the testicles for contraception. I'd about given up on doing anything else with mine other than informal measuring once in a while. However, once I read the French info and then did my own usual research on heat damage to testicles in the medical literature, I realized I had a new avenue to persue in my quest to "kill" the little worthless bastards in place. And yes, by then I'd decided they'd become wothless. By mid-year, that year 2022), I finally come across the definitive study that would explain why.

Studying heat I learned about how the testes require being 4 to 8-degrees(F) cooler than core body temperature, how even slight heating disrupts healthy sperm production, and how to do the latter intentionally. The French site sold undies and such to maintain the "boys" inside the groin, leading to sterility after a rather extended time doing so. One way was with an elastic strap worn under the nut-sack and around the top of the penis. I had such a piece for something else and found it worked well. I began wearing it as often as possible. My nuts already being small and never hanging very low, seemed at home in my groin. At one point I went for over a month wearing them inside every day all day, except at night.

About then, I discovered a new medical article on the effects of extended sexual abstinence/non-ejaculation!

Cool, bin gespannt wie es weiter geht

I am afraid that I don't really see any need for castration. You have lead a full sex life therefore can you not merely forget your testicles are there? Am I missing something?

Thanks for posting

I'll start by describing myself and my somewhat non-typical testicle history so that any interested reader can best decide how what I say may or may not be relevant to them. I began masturbating at 12-years old by accident because I'd always played a lot with my genitals. Being uncircumcised in the US in the early 1950s proved to be unusual outside my family, perhaps contributing to my ongoing interest in my seemingly unique "package."

I did not ejaculate at first, and only began to dribble a little runny liquid belatedly after each time I'd cum. But, even this didn't commence until several months after I began very frequent and intense jacking. I had no indication that there was anything unique about my nuts at that time; and, I'm sure there wasn't. Then, when 17-years old. I got a severe case of mumps, which "went down," as politely described for infecting the testes. That sent me to bed for a solid week. Together as a pair my testes swelled to the size of a a smallish grapefruit and hurt like hell most of that time.

When the illness finally passed and the swelling went down it didn't stop where it had begun. My nuts continued to shrink and became more a pair of nutlets, so to speak. Yet, they were within the small, normal range. I might add that they probably didn't fully recover either of their natural functions: producing both sperm and testosterone, since it took years for my wife to get pregnant and I've never put on muscle no matter how hard I worked out nor for how long.

This is my relevant background. I'll post it and add how I became interested in castration next, which will bring this account up to date.