Thank you for your thoughtful response. Wow, now that I really think about it, it would be awesome to watch other guys bust a nut while fantasizing about my cock. My partner occasionally wants to cuddle and watch me masturbate until I cum on her, so being watched appreciatively is a big turn on.
Thanks for the website recommendation, I’ll check it out. I have camming equipment and a surprising amount of free time.

That's interesting. Do you feel like it's "performance pressure"? Do you find you are distracted by the thought of people watching you? For me, it started when my partner showed an interest in watching me jerk off. It turns her on to watch me pleasure myself and she can alternate between kissing and watching. She likes to hold my balls while she wat. Anyway, I found that being watched along with the appreciative comments my penis inspires is a huge turn on. The thought of other people (men and women) watching me and touching themselves is an incredible trn on,and I find it easy to stay hard and even put on a show edging the tip till I bust a juicy nut!
If it helps, think about the pleasure you bring others by pleasuring yourself.